Like an injured seagull resting on the wind
I might fall onto the rocks below
and bruise my hope
and lose my soul
I feel like my faith has thinned
I don’t know how to go with the flow
I can use my rope
if you would pull
But are you even there
I just don’t know…
Are you here?
I just don’t know
Maybe I will wait on this rock forever more
I’m pounding against its surface
but I can’t get out
I can’t find you
There are monsters lurking inside my core
I’m waking to a lovely sunlit bliss
but you fill me with doubt
why are we askew?
I wish we could live happily ever after
but maybe the promises are lies
I wish you were real
I could wish you alive
I really wish you were more than just a blur
I can’t see into your imaginary eyes
I wish I could feel
Can my heart survive?
The scariest thing that haunts me is you
You are too good to be true
Will I ever get to be with you?
In the last while, I was plagued with self-doubt
Lack of faith burrowed in my soul
I became skeptical
And when I fell, I let you in and then kicked you out
because everything you said sounded like bull
are you cryptical
Was everything you said just a lie?
Was I always so gullible?
Can’t you give me a sign just for tonight?
If it is really possible?
Why is this such a narrow road?
One way, and never coming back to love
The journey never ends here
it just goes on forever
I’m always back in this maze
Encrypting the days
I stand here all alone
so standoffish but so amazed
I try to listen to my heart
maybe it doesn’t exist
Maybe love is just a thing that only happens
to those who are lucky enough
Did my heart grow cold and solid
with all the blood I tried to steal?
Did the lies come from a fairytale or parable
am I even real?
I try to love
but I can’t feel
I have to be tough
when I’m not sure what’s real
I know you’re just a sweet error in my brain
but you taught me love somehow
and maybe this is a bittersweet end
goodbye pituitary gland…
Everyone knows I’m just insane
so what’s the point of fighting it now
you’re my imaginary friend
The saddest thing that happened to me was you
You’re too good to be true