Undisturbed

As the fiery flames of transmutation

embrace the world in the Great Tribulation

some people fight, some people wait

some people cry, but oh my god yes, I feel so great

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Here is the church

Here is the steeple

Open the doors

and see all the people

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They are going away (see all the people walking away)

All my nations are bound in hate, all my nations are found in hate

But I will stay, oh my god yes, I will stay and wait

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There is war beyond the gate

but I don’t care because my path does not go straight

It is right here, right now

I am right here, right now

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I sit here in solitude

drinking a cup of tea

This place is my heart

this peace is my reality

Soon I’ll dance in my home, my haven, my fortress

Undisturbed, alone and peaceful. Oh my god yes!

I fill myself with love and happiness

I don’t need anything else, just this

All I can feel is gratitude

because I’ve been blessed with such beauty

I need not a purpose, a friend or a duty

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Ra sits on his perch

Far above his people

And as his fires rape the shores

I sit inside my steeple

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Look at them all search

for the cure to life

I find it here in silence

as I lay on my floor

so peaceful, untouched and undisturbed

The Pursuit Of Nothingness

On the quest for happiness

I used to cling to dreams

They were gold and fun and right

No matter how much the captive screams

I am always going to fight

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The dreams are always running out of sight

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Betrayed by everything that seemed to be true

Just a mirage that manipulated my view

There is no point in wanting

There is no point in dreaming

It will never be enough for you

Even after you succeed

You’ll find there’s nothing left but wanting

You’ll always need

more to prevent the haunting

Always wanting, always needing, always dying just to have something to do

Until the day you realize there is really nothing left to do

Even after you succeed

You’ll find there’s nothing left but want

You’ll never bleed

enough to fulfill that desire

that big empty void that’s designed to push you into the fire

Smoke clouds are billowing

Blinded as you try to find a purpose in everything

But you know it’s nothing

You found a purpose a million times

but it was never what you truly sought

So you traveled to places no one has ever been

and experienced so much you forgot

What’s the point, you forgot everything that was taught

Because you’ll never find happiness in a mind that has any thought

You struggled so long to seek happiness in goals and gold

Until you realized

the only happiness you’ll ever feel comes from inside

When the cities are cold and my body grows old

I’ll be happy as a smart old man

Just sitting and enjoying the nothingness as it rains all over the land

Wanting nothing from something and wanting something from nothing

is a trivial pursuit of man

-Sabrina Geiger

Man With A Gun

Time rolls on
Even though you’ve lost everyone
They’re all gone
so I’m packing up sandwiches and an ak40 gun

Now I’m on the run
I just wanted substance, I wasn’t in it for fun
I just wanted a chance, I just wanted someone
and when it came to romance, I just really wanted some
But I got none

They said Son
when are you going to make your home run
Tell us when you’re done

Well I carried my problems, oh yes I carried tons
I broke my back every season, I carried them strong
but with them I didn’t belong
I brought back my victories, I told them I had won
but to them that might as well be none
to them I’ll never be bright like the sun

My Pa knows I’ll never be the man he wants me to be
and how I’ll never see what he wants me to see
Because I’m just a man with a gun
Just a lonely man with a gun

Does Ma still cry every time she’s thinking of me
thinking, just how I turned out wrong
thinking, maybe I never was her son

I don’t want to get older!
not if that means I have to be alone!
don’t want to live or die
if I can’t be known….
it’s a long hard life on your throne!
and i just really don’t want to be alone

No I don’t want to get older
not if that means I have to be alone
I lost everyone I’ve loved and I’ve lost everything I’ve owned
now you tell me I can’t come home
just a wandering man on his own
forever do I roam

No I don’t want to get older!
not if that means I have to be alone!
I’d rather be a child
forever that you can hold….
Tell me, time will never move on!
Tell me we can go back to the days when your curtains weren’t drawn
Tell me, time will never move on!

So what do I do to prevent time from rolling on
still carrying my problems, still carrying my guns
time has took you from me and it’s taken any hope of dawn
So,
can I really move on
knowing all the people I love
are gone